owh....i'm finally back after such a long long time!!!the saddest thing I had a cut on my wrist I spend that particular nite alone in my room crying from 2am till 6am. I didnt have my fags n was paranoid I took the screw driver trying to unscrew da screws in my brains but TAK JADI!I took some money from my dad's wallet headed to 7E bought a pack of ciggie and beer...went home cant put myself to bed, I cut myself again...untill bout 5 he came to see me we discussed bout stuff and it almost became our last meeting...the next mornin came I found out it was the typical PMS!!(wtf?) ....I send him a msg saying "I cant believe after all we had now u dont want me anymore.." he then called me the next day saying he didnt mean it n stuff we were OK!(honestly I have no freakin idea what we fought about all I know is it was massive) so many things happened but I cant recall!! owh yea...we broke up de other day over the phone then the next day he called me and said " I want you.." it all happened when I started to suspect he has a 3rd party. the conversation over the phone went as follows: Me: Are you having an affair? U have been so different these days Him: No!!!No!!No!! Me: If u have another girl who's better then me just lemme know..don't lemme find out from others Him: Well, if u say so then YES! I have another girl behind ur back.. Me: Is that so??then u dont love me anymore???u dont want me anymore? Him: No!!!I DO NOT WANT U ANYMORE!! Me: ok....its up to u...jus dont regret. Later that nite. I called one of his closest fren. I spoked to him for 45 mins. I realised I didnt understand him enough. I didnt give him the space that he wanted and stuff. That morning after work, I sent him my last msg I said "you really dont want me anymore?" I told myself from that day onwards I will not take controll of him no more and will not waste my time and pennies on calls to check on him..I told myself to give him all the space he wants in the world..let him do what ever he wants to do and accept him for who and what he is...give in to him and he'll give me what I want at de end of the day.. and there's no use of me bugging him Conclusion: We only broke up for a day.. what else?what else?? SICKY DAYE!
owh yea!!It was a rainy morning...work time was over..I was running late for my transport!!I ran all the way with my short pink skirt and pink top (thank god its not white and transparent! ) I shiver in the bus... the next thing I know, I fell sick my nose were hot and it enlarged I was sneezing till I cant even take calls!!it was a REAL BAD DAY!! but what ever it is I managed the whole day thru...I manged to do things for my bro and took care of the kids and came to work..The next day came, thank god I took half day..just before I took my day off I went to this thingy which is called "ASK ROSS LIVE!" the show was awesome but unfortunately I didnt manage to ask my questions.. after that session, I took a few calls..when the clock striked 0145 me and my group members were all told to proceed to the meeting room..we were being lectured by our manager of operations..I couldnt resist but to laugh out loud after we were dismissed..(he's an INDIAN!! (thank god he's leaving!! )) ... when I was about to proceed to my seat, Desmond - one of the AMO ask me to be incharged for the performance!!(dang it!!WHY!!??)anyway...I hope everything's gonna smooth flowing.. FRIDAY 11TH ONWARDS
sweet sweet weekend!I planned to take half-day leave to check on him to see weither he brings other chics back home or not...at the mean time I gave him a surprise!! we had the best nite...we watched spider man it was the best nite in 7 months I never seen him so happy in quite some time now. It was an enjoyable nite indeed!!even on Saturday I managed to catch up on my sleeps and when he was working at nite and I was busy with my bro's stuff by the time I'm done no doubt I was a lil bored cus I didnt know where to go but thank god  I getta ease my borederm with his lady boss by shopping at chinatown..I bought a hot top which was RED halter ...hhuu....then we went all the way to SS2 Murni for supper and that's it!! hhmmm.......its nothin much about work but only my personal stuff....and today's call sucks to the max!!!but the time is running fast!  over and out!
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owh god everything started on friday when I took a half day off. I drove back from work met up with a few of my babes..ate supper (nasi lemak..nyum nyum!
) chilled at asia cafe..heard a few bad gossips from my babes...had a couple of beers at one of babe's crib then I went home at bout 0400 but slept only after 0600..whatever it is Friday was owkayh..- Saturday came..I woke up without my husband by my side he didnt sleep the whole nite and he went to work. Woke up at about 1400, had my bath and branch and stuff I proceeded to clean the room my owh my!!the room looked brand new I cleaned the fan,the floor, I changed the bed sheet, the wardrobe and the toilet
why cant you guys just suggest before Saturday?(hellow frens!I do not like last minute thingy!!
)at the of the day we sticked to our initial plan...we had loadsa fun!!Erma hadta stood on the chair and everyone sung birthday song (she was cool with it but she was partly emberrassed as well
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well I jus got back from lunch..(the food must take 15mins to be served)dang.!!they manopolise the whole Cyberjaya but their service sucks!! but anyway..jus as I was waiting for my transport to pick me up to work, my 2 lil poor cousins called me and said they had no food for dinner..I tried calling my dad but he was stuck in the mosque praying and my hubby was not available (he hadta work) I was furious about this..I was confused I didnt know wutta do..but however I received a call later my uncle said he was on the way home..I was relieved (phewh..)...hhhmm...I cant wait for saturday nite ta come!date with all my pumpkin monsters!(my babes) Erma's belated bday celebration (mini)
1st: I was late for work.2nd: my calls SUX!1st it was a non-app I told myself "it's ok I can try to do better" then it continued and my non-apps increased...it got higher for 2 hours straight I had SEVEN non-apps..owh goodies!I was frustrated and all furious like shit!
it's falling terribly!!I'm about to go bold..mmm...I cant imagine it at all man!!seriously...GOSH!anyway..I ate my breakfast (p.s. I work overnite, my timing are OUT) headed to my pick up point towards workplace..during my journey to the pick up point- I was planning a day out with my babes this saturday..as it is erma's bday 
...At the beginning of the day, my calls were g00d den it flopped after lunch...owh god!I just cant wait fa pay day!I cant wait ta go shopping and fix my dry hair...i've got so many things ta buy!!!I wanna get sum new shoes, new clothes (get my wardrobe a make over), new hairstyle, new life, new everything but not new boyfriend!
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